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[Fri
Nov 27th, 2009 // 7:56am] |
I hope everyone had a lovely Thanksgiving ♥!
Mine was really nice. Even though things are rough with my family situation right now, there was this tranquil sense of peace and togetherness in everyone (even the grumps!)
The night before, I even got nine hours of sleep. I've been quite an insomniac lately, so this was HUUUGE for me. I even got up and exercised that morning XD
Last night wasn't so good, but I suppose that's because I consumed my weight in sugar.
anyway
I spent the day thinking about what I was thankful for, and what was important to me, but I started to realize that if I actually made a list of what I was thankful for, it would be way too long! XD
so, in summary,
I AM THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING!!!
Especially YOU. ♥
I'm thankful even for the bad times. Even when I'm fighting with someone I love, or when I royally mess up and hurt someone, or when my self-esteem is in the pits. I'm thankful even for those times, because the Universe wouldn't be whole without times like that. I wouldn't be Me without times like that. They help us to grow and mature and achieve who we want to and need to become more than happy, peaceful times can.
It's hard for me to explain to people what I mean when I say "everything and everyone is important." like... if you were to say, "I'm not important. I'm no one." I might not even respond because I can't wrap my mind around how vastly important you ARE. Everything you do, everything you say, has an impact on this world. It creates and shapes this world into something completely new and more beautiful than the world it was before. You, in your one, single being, have the ability to understand, remember, think, believe, decide, create, express, observe, imagine and LOVE!! How could a single being like that possibly be unimportant or worthless? This Universe could not exist without You. That's that. You are unbelievably, amazingly perfect.
Like... I was made fun of a LOT as a kid. For a long time, I learned to cope with my bad self-esteem and my loneliness by pulling myself into my imagination. I would make up better worlds where I could live without all the negativity being placed upon me. Even though it really really sucked back then, I'm grateful for it now. Even though I'm grown up (well, who are we kidding? I'm not grown up XD) I still have a very powerful imagination. I have my weird quirks that sometimes bother people but without them I wouldn't be Me. I exist as I am right now in this world because this is how I'm supposed to be, and all those bad things I experienced in my childhood helped shape me into this Me that I'm supposed to be!
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I'm filled with so much love right now!
/R
PS - Oh yeah, and I think that Thanksgiving should be the big gift-giving holiday instead of Christmas. Think about it, on Thanksgiving we cook this huge amount of food that we eat with our families and catch up on the times and supposedly are thankful for each other. But what about everyone else we're thankful for? We should swap traditions so it's on Thanksgiving that we give each other gifts to celebrate that we really appreciate them in our lives instead of having it be a religious exclusive.
I realize that they have their basis in where they originated; Thanksgiving is to commemorate the feast between the pilgrims and the Native Americans, while the gift-giving tradition of Christmas is to commemorate the bringing of gifts to the birth of Jesus.
I celebrate Christmas partially because it is overwhelmingly the norm here, partially because it is what I grew up with, and partially because I love getting sucked up into the feeling of giving and receiving equally, in being more open with giving hugs and merry cheer and love, rather than actually celebrating what Christmas is supposed to be about.
That is to say, I celebrate commercial Christmas. I like having an excuse to celebrate the people I love. Why isn't there like LOVE day?! (Valentine's Day doesn't count, as it is exclusively romantic.)
It's easy for me to say we should swap the holiday traditions because I'm not a Christian and I'm okay with changing archaic traditions to suit modern times XD. I realize I'm biased in this way, but doesn't it make more sense to give gifts to those you are thankful for on Thanksgiving?
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| Do not diss pescetarians, you vegans. |
[Tue
Nov 24th, 2009 // 8:26am] |
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It annoys me when websites make all sorts of updates and add tools that make things more convenient. It makes them lag, clutters them, and makes them more confusing. You know what, website builders?
We're smart people. We can figure it out. A few extra clicks won't kill us. If we can't figure it out, then we should ask someone or we shouldn't be on the internet.
That aside, I totally passed my permit exam yesterday! ♥ I can now legally drive under the supervision of a two-year license holder.
The whole twenty-four hours before taking the exam, I was a total wreck. I know, I know, I always do this! I freak out and complain that I don't know what I'm talking about and that I'm not ready to take the test, and then I totally ace it.
(I totally aced this test.)
In my defense, I still really don't know what I'm talking about in regards to driving a car. Most of the questions were ripped directly from the guide I have from three years ago. I'm not complaining, though! ♥
So my mom was like, "..........So, do you want to drive home?"
"No! Oh my god, no, are you kidding me?!"
Yup, I still hate driving. Boo.
/R
PS - Yeah, that's me sitting at a train station as a kid, hah.
PSS - Exhausted, still can't sleep!
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| Weep for yourself, My Man |
[Sat
Nov 21st, 2009 // 1:40am] |
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Sleep is still being iffy. I am waking and sleeping at all hours of the day at this point. I can use this to my advantage, though, since I won't be breaking a set routine (of being nocturnal).
However, I've started getting siicckkk. mah. I need to start eating healthier. My parents have taken my decision to be pescetarian as meaning "no meats = carbs, then" so I've been eating like blaaah. and my body is blaaah and squishy and I'm constantly uncomfortable in my own skin.
I want like some veggie soup. yeah.
Also, I'm going for my permit on Monday. I don't know the rules of the road WAAAH
/R
PS, I know what my brother looks like now. In the first picture I saw of him, he was dressed as Luigi.
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| Weep, Little Lion Man |
[Wed
Nov 18th, 2009 // 12:01am] |
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We bought Star Trek on dvd today! Mom and I watched it with great fervor. Also, my mom announced that Zachary Quinto is "quite yummy", to which I heartily concurred.
Well, when Dad and I were out buying the dvd he was like, "Hey, you mentioned the Sims 3 has a new expansion pack. Wanna get that, too?" "I don't have the money for it right now." "It's cool, I'll pay." ";alksdjfa really? :OO"
For those who play the Sims 3, DON'T INSTALL WORLD ADVENTURES YET. Also, DO NOT INSTALL GAME UPDATE 1.5/1.6!!
They are both causing huge problems that are rippling out into the fandom. I can't play my game anymore, after TWO complete reinstalls (which means I lost all thirty-seven generations of my bloodline ;O; waaa) and it still doesn't work.
First, when the game loaded, the loading music just kept playing and there wasn't any other audio and it was being really slow, and would freeze when I tried to quit. After a good complete uninstall and reinstall, that problem seemed to resolve, but now there aren't any traits so I can't make a new sim and start a new game. because you can't make a sim without traits. but there aren't any there. :| asldkfja Hopefully EA will work this out soon.
Additionally, even though I know no one reads this XD
I'm regulating my sleep cycle and won't be on AIM until it's gotten back to normal-ish. I'll check the usual places though so if there's something important I need to know, leave a comment somewhere. or text me. whatevs.
oyasumi
/R
PS - Not that I know by experience (>8() but apparently The Sims 3 World Adventures has mopeds. Mopeds.
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| All in a Frenzy. |
[Wed
Nov 11th, 2009 // 9:54pm] |
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I just found someone who draws sheep people JUST LIKE MINE. well, not exactly, but really similarly. Actually, hers are cuter than mine OTL
but that's okay.
anyway, Day XX of pescetarianism is going well. (actually I haven't been keeping track of when I made the announcement to everyone and it's not like meat was a huge part of my daily diet anyway so it's not a huge thing XDD)
Chocolate Tallcake was at Tuesday's. It was quite pleasant. Also, our server was taller than him. There have not been many times I have felt shorter than then.
When the manager came over to tell us we were selected to do their survey for like four bucks off our next meal, she complimented me not only on my hair color but my WHOLE STYLE, which is something I don't usually hear. It was quite nice ♥
waaa I have been SO TIRED lately. I think it's because even though I stay up really really late, I still insist on waking up at a reasonable hour xD After a few weeks of going to bed at 4 AM and waking up at 10 AM, I've started to get worn down. and then the cycle begins. I'm too tired to exercise, but because I don't exercise I feel tired but still have too much residual energy to sleep and so stay up late and feel too tired the next day....
That said, I'm off! Shutting off the computer for the night because the computer is the Number One reason for sleep deprivation! (in my case)
osssu
おやすみ
/R
PS - also, if you've ever noticed me sitting and then randomly shifting my shoulders or my back, it's because I have a naturally extra-curved spine and need to keep correcting my posture. Otherwise, the nerves pinch in my lower back and there's paaainnn all down my legs.
Check it: when you're sitting normally (which for most people means slouched forward a bit) straighten your back. By spreading the distribution of weight like that, you'll feel your arms and shoulders relax as the tension isn't all put on them.
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| A touching story. |
[Thu
Nov 5th, 2009 // 10:46pm] |
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So, today I was cleaning the house as per the usual agreement when I heard a strange rumbling emanating from my garage. Of course, I went to investigate. As a side note, yes, I would be the stupid one to investigate the strange growling noise alone in the dark and dies painfully. However, in such a situation, I would also be the one to alert the rest of the group that something is very seriously wrong with my screams as the last bits of life leave me.
Anyway, I went to investigate the strange noise in my garage to find who I could only assume was a delivery man, delivering some massive boxes. This is illustrated below*:
*note, actual garage and actual deliveryman not pictured; this is an approximation
Upon realizing that these things were, in fact, the keyboard I have been saving up for for several months and that I had been waiting for for several days before remembering I have impeccable UPS delivery powers and summoned myself.
As I tore into the boxes, bare handed and giddy, I looked up and realized that it was snowing. I was suddenly struck by the surreal sense of Christmas in November, and so decided that playing Jingle Bell Rock on repeat would be highly appropriate.
Hours and hours and hours later*, I had finally assembled the stand (I am becoming quite the furniture-assembling pro, If I do say so myself). I stood back, plugged it in, and was delighted by what I found!
*note, only two hours
I love love love this digital piano ♥. It needs some getting used to, in that I'm not entirely used to weighted keys, the sound is more like an acoustic than a MIDI, and the obvious fact that it is roughly twice the size of my old keyboard.
Fantastic.
/R
PS - yes, I did tell my piano to arrive today and that's exactly what it did ♥
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| This is my private bee-eeeddd.. |
[Wed
Nov 4th, 2009 // 9:23pm] |
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I was posting an old short story to my writing/personal rambling journal and was looking through a few old rambles when I read this:
"Life is what you make it.
I forgot about that. I complained that my life is nothing. Because of that, my life became nothing.
My life is everything. My life is full of happiness, friends, family, sunny and breezy days, random snapping turtles, dancing in the rain, babies being born, believing what I believe, and doing things that I love to do, even if it's one thing or seven hundred different things.
Having many different aspirations isn't a bad thing. I'm not locked into one track; it's more like a web or a branching river... they're all the same water, they just go to different places. They all exist at once, just like me.
I am the photographer, the musician, the artist, the psychologist, the linguist, the thinker, the spiritualist, the scientist, the writer, the learner. I am Me.
omg, how did I forget that? XD
Maybe it's because the way I think is different from the people I talk to--they expect me to have something in my head, they are curious about it, but I'm like totally somewhere else or like in a different dimension XD
It isn't wrong or right or black and white, it is simply that we are all collectively our own beings.
What do I want?
I want to be happy.
I want to love and be loved in return.
I want to learn everything.
I want to find my path.
I want to be healthy.
I want to learn about cultures and languages and lifestyles of people all around the world.
I want to live simply and clearly.
I want to be me.
Above all, I want to be me."
and it made me smile, so I thought I'd post it here where a few people might read it and maybe make them smile too, or something.
In any case, look at how cool I can be. I should have my own talk show.
/R
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| A good seed can sprout out of bad soil! |
[Sun
Nov 1st, 2009 // 1:33am] |
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Happy Halloween, everyone!
Today started out as a really shitty day, partially because of the completely dreary weather. I usually don't mind so much, but it was just the type of day that was totally drained of color and the time between autumn and winter when everything is just.. dead. This was in addition to a lot of personal issues going on with my family and it was just blaaah!
But as the day and evening progressed, my parents became grumpier (they hate Halloween) and the wind got a lot stronger. It was really cool, the wind was so strong that when I opened my window, which usually has like NO airflow at ALL, I was smacked in the face by a howling wind! It actually howled and leaves were flying around like crazy and it was pretty warm and smelled fantastic!
Additionally, I finally saved up enough money for my digital piano!! I ordered it earlier today and am super excited!! It should be here in 'two to five business days' with free shipping, can't beat that!
The four of us (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) akaifaia99, cinnri, her boyfriend and I) all went to Timmy's to hang out for a while. This is the first time I've actually met Jared, and he was pretty cool. I approve. xD They seem to work well together, I'm really happy for them <3
I'm tired! I'm always tired. I'm never able to sleep. ;; waah but whatever, I always figure it out in the end!
/R
PS - yes, I'm still hooked on Vitas. Instead of Lucia Di Lammermoor, however, it is now Opera 2.
PSS - I'm getting back into yoga! I took a break from it for a while and already I'm all inflexible, waah. And for some reason my right leg is a LOT more flexible than my left XD It's always been like this and I don't really understand why. I don't use my right leg a great deal more than my left...
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| It's a mystery where you'll find me! |
[Sun
Oct 18th, 2009 // 12:42pm] |
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This was the view from my window early this morning. It was absolutely gorgeous! I love having an east facing window ♥
So we saw Where the Wild Things Are yesterday, and I loved it! It was a great portrayal of imagination asldkjfa. There were obviously differences from the book, but if they did the same thing as the book, it would have been a fifteen minute movie oversimplified for kids. Actually, there was only one kid in the whole theater. w Anyway, there were a lot of nice subtleties in the movie and yeah, I started to tear up at the end! It was sad though ;;
And today I started my Food and Nutrition course because I love learning about how food affects the body and mind, and although I still think it will be interesting, the fact that there are three pages on how to properly use a microwave is a hint that it might be a bit simple. w
Oh well, we'll see.
/R
PS. I just tried this TeaWater stuff. It's like.. tea flavored water. You know how they have fruit flavored water? It's like that. but tea. I tried the green tea with pomegranite flavor and it's really really good! Even my mom liked it, and she usually doesn't like stuff like this. It's a really light and subtle flavor ♥
PPS. I just downloaded the soundtrack from Where the Wild Things Are and omg it is so sweet. My favorite is "All is Love" for like a billion reasons. ALL IS LOVE, how awesome is that?
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